I completed pass plus today and it's annoying me the fact that I didn't choose to book the final date exactly a month after.. I don't know why dates are so important to me but it would have been nice to pass pp on the 8th too. In reality it makes no difference so I need to stop over analysing letters and numbers!

Other than that it was a cloudy day and I found my way to Darlington and back on my own and made a blast through the highway. Overtaking was a devil today and I kept coming back in leaving too little space. I should have carried on going on the outer lane with my foot down and coming back in when the road ahead is clear... again I'm being overly nice and trying to get out the way of other drivers. It's not good to be nice and in my cases it's incredibly wrong 'cos they're all dangerous faults.

Apparently the monster beside me thought I did really well but I know it could have been better. It always can be, but there is no such thing as perfect so why am I constantly chasing after it?

I'm loving these pass plus days and I'm definitely enjoying myself and having a great laugh...but the monster made me whizz up to the top of a car park today to come all the way back down again... something I'd never done before in my days as a learner but I was edging a bit close on some cases....but the car is still in one piece! I laugh!

I was alert to the L board today and I reminded Little Miss Forgetful to take it off for me.. Highly a lot of fun when we just escaped Yarm and one of the roads were closed from a flood. It was sunshining today so it was obviously left there from before. The risk-taker beside me lives life dangerously and asked me if I wanted to chance it through the sign...we decided not to as 2 others made a U-turn and carried on their journey. We did the same and on the way back, we saw the road at the end of what was closed off, was open! ...So if we went through we would've got out but it's best to be safe than sorry!

The first of the pass plus course and I've got someone else sitting beside me. It's all cool and we cruised along the country roads of Whitby just when I thought I was hitting the highway! Obviously it was a better decision not to since it was a different car and I needed to get used to it before I went out on the big roads. The scenery was fab and some of the hills were 25% steep!! A selection of lower gears pulled me up the hill and putting the foot to the floor did the trick.

Indeed it was different driving as a passed driver and I didn't get so much lunatics overtake me on the curvy road..obviously I got the odd one or two who knew the place and thought I was going ridiculously slow!!! ...But I didn't mind driving like a tourist ;)

I looked at the learners board today as I walked to the car and it just didn't click that I didn't need it anymore...it was funny when J forgot too and K had phoned her and remind her!

This time last week I passed... I would have been out on test roads and 4 minutes into my test...ugh that's horrible!!!

Something nice arrived through the post today and has been waiting for me to come home from work! :)

It was definitely a different feeling when I woke up this morning. A feeling of happiness with a feeling of sadness. Of course the happiness was unusual for the morning after but I'm also gonna miss being a learner. No more pick ups and drop offs, no more men talk and no more Kim Kim giving me directions. It's all gonna be greatly missed but she kept her promise and helped me pass. Thanks ever so much Kim.

It was obviously a wrong choice to go with 'Bring Some Money' and I can't believe the monsters told me not to signal off mini roundabouts. At the time I didn't know what was right but now I do, and I only hope people don't follow the same route I did just for their name. It was said to me before I made the choice and now I paid the price.

It's been the best 'night before' sleep out of them all and I've had no major breakdown. I guess the thought of bringing my instructor with me improved my mood immensely even though in the end I didn't go through with it since I would be carrying extra weight in the car.

After nearly 2 years of lessons, almost 200 hours of training, x amount of tests, I've finally got what I've been working for. I can definitely say my effort and continuous determination to fight has all been worth it and I believe you will get out of it what you put into it. I almost lost it again within the first 10 mins,. I noticed the hesitation kicking in and if I didn't do something about it, I would have lost it exactly the same way I did with the last. It worked and I was alert. An earlier test time than usual took away a lot of the traffic and I was rolling. It's been a good day and the shift from 2-9 to 2-8 worked well with my luck and superstition. A dull day changing to a bright day as I drove and shining on the wet road was piercing my eyes... I've always been too short for those sun blocking boards! ..But indeed after I turned left, the sun stopped following us.

I cry when I fail and I cry when I pass, but these are good tears, tears of relief but now I have no ID to get some alcohol...will a pass certificate do?? I also forgot to mention the embarrassing moment where I walked out of the mens toilets at the test centre..or what I call the prison camp. Obviously I was so alert...but I did knock before i went in!! :x

I just want to thank the people behind me giving me the constant support. I know that it's been a big whirl but I'm finally where I want to be... without the drink, without the fags and most importantly without the meds.