I was in a taxi today and as usual I always talk to the driver about their driving experience and the amount of attempts they used to obtain their licence. The man today had been driving for 40 years and had taken 5 tests before he managed to pass. He told me not to lose hope. He said go out with an attitude that tells yourself that you are the best driver, and everybody else around you are idiots. He said this to both his daughters and they passed their test and have continued to use the same attitude since. He also said keep faith and don't take it to heart if you don't pass.. keep trying and there will be a time that you will.

What an outstanding, complex and gruesome movie!!! It certainly kept me awake all the way through and is a definite must watch to those that haven't seen it... Cast includes Hayden Christensen and Jessica Alba.

I have nothing much to say... I tried. Obtaining my licence in Chester doesn't mean that much to me anymore, even though it was once meaningful and it would have been nice to end my 3 years stay here. Of course, it would have also been nice to celebrate the success with my instructor, who has guided me through the obstacles and helped prepare me for this hurdle, but unfortunately, as I learn many true facts of life from the famous Taiwanese drama 'Silence', I begin to accept the misfortunes in life and that every opportunity must be taken to the fullest without regret. Hand on heart, I can honestly say without regret that I grasped onto every opportunity that was offered.

My misfortune and inner fear was all led by the new car. I tried to face it with courage but the biting point was extremely quiet, and for this reason, stalling was always a fear. Just when I thought I had mastered it in the lessons, the touch slipped away from me on the test and repeatedly occured as I tried to emerge onto a main road. The junction was on a slight incline, which forced me to roll backwards if I didn't keep the bite.. It was marked as a serious fault since a few cars were lined up behind me. The solution was to add gas to get me up the slope, but because I had my foot on the foot brake to hold the car still, I could not add the gas. I didn't use the hand brake and this would have helped me a great deal.

(Hours 132 & 133)

I've been put through torment through most of the morning trying to get to my results, but the more I couldn't get to them, the more I was feeling happy... the University server had been busy most of the day and I thought I would try again after the driving lesson, but instead, the server had totally collapsed! It was obviously fated for me to have the driving test result revealed before my degree class.. but I feel very happy now since I know I can't physically get to the University system. It would definitely hurt me to know that they are published and to make a choice not to see them, but now, it's no longer within my hands...

Today's lesson was promising.. and as long as I try my best to transfer my skills from lesson to test I will be OK, but the question is, will that be possible?

I've been trying since 8:42 this morning just to see my degree classification. My plans had obviously changed since last week as I thought I'd reveal my driving test result before the result of my studies. The only reason behind this was to keep my mind focused on the test and not be reversed if the result was not what I was looking for,. but over the weekend, the pressure was building and I felt rather frustrated as everything remains in question marks.. but now I'm going to half my pressure by taking a peek at my degree class.. I think this will be better for me as it will help keep me relaxed through the drive tomorrow.

At the moment, everyone seems to have got their results and are celebrating.. while I seem to be the only one still waiting...

(Hours 130 & 131)

I felt the slight nerves kicking in today but it slowly wore off as the lesson progressed... it still just seems to be some of the little bits that I can't get right, but obviously, there's only a certain amount I can do before the test goes out the window, so I've just got to remember the essential 3 lines that were running through my head this morning... "Stay focused, keep calm and be patient". These are the 3 main points people have advised me that only I can keep under control, but most importantly, I must beat the devil inside me by giving myself 100% belief.. as "I'll only pass if I believe"..

Just after the weekend, all will be revealed. My degree results will be published and my last chance to defeat Chester will arrive...

(Hours 127, 128 & 129)

I had an extended lesson today and drove solidly for 3 hours. The beginning ran smoothly, but as the minutes passed in the last hour, things started to get out of control! The unusual became the usual and I've never seen this occur before in my many hours of practice! The nasty bends caught me out on this occasion and I was accelerating and braking through them at various points. On the whole, I'm pretty happy with the overall performance and I'm taking to the new car quite well, but I've just got to remember to focus solely on the driving and not to let my mind wander, otherwise nothing's going to get me this licence.

As always me and my instructor like to have a good chuckle at the front of the car and today's selected topic was my previous attempts at the test. Even though I know how serious the note is, I made a joke of it as he mentioned "forget about the previous tests because they've all past now"... and for a split second my imagination wandered again and I was happy that they're all PASSED!! hahaha

(Hours 125 & 126)

It's just less than a week before all my results are published for what I've been striving for in the past 3 years, and most importantly, this last year. My provisional degree class will be released early next week along with a P or an F for the driving test.

I looked in amazement when I saw the beautiful blue BSM car today and I got told that this is what I will be using for my test. Hopefully, it will bring me better luck, and already, it has been off to a good start with a PASS this morning. The test was taken in Chester and was also a fourth time pass for the learner. The thing I laugh at most was the examiner that took him, and I hear for all 4 times was unfortunately - Deadly Mr. Dodd, the miserable man that had taken me for my second attempt.

I'm happy to be able to use the new car due to obvious superstitious reasons, and therefore thinking myself lucky to have the chance to practice in it before the actual test date. My instructor asked me to move off when I was ready, which left me replying "I'm never ready" in amusement. My reaction triggered a famous poem to him, which he kindly reeled off to me!

Here I paste the funny poem by Spike Milligan, and laugh so much when I read that Freddy's lifestyle is just like mine!

Soldier Freddy
was never ready,
But! Soldier Neddy,
unlike Freddy
Was always ready
and steady,

That's why,
When Soldier Neddy
Is-outside-Buckingham-Palace-on-guard-in-the-pouring-wind-and-rain-being-steady-and-ready,
Freddy
is home in beddy.