(Hours 123 & 124)

Finally everything's falling back into place again and the horrid feeling of fear at the start of every lesson seems to be paying off. I had an 'abnormal' car today due to bad steering correspondence that arose from a bump by somebody else on Tuesday. I felt clumsy driving the car at first as more steer was required just to get it to where I wanted it to go, but as time passed, I soon got the hang of it and it felt just like normal.

I'm slowly increasing my hope for this next test and I'm eventually letting go of all the past mistakes and previous attempts. It's helping a great deal and I didn't think it was ever possible for me to put the past down, but as my friend told me a few weeks ago, I will only pass if I believe... so now I'm beginning to believe, my performance is actually getting better and my instructor feels that less serious faults are being made and the drive is definitely much more relaxed. As they say 'seeing is believing', so now I see it, I feel I can believe and my instructor says, it's hard enough to pass even when you believe, but it makes it twice as hard when you don't.. so from these comments, it tells me only one thing - to tackle the test with a heart full of hope and belief.